Monday, July 21, 2008

on a VERY SAD note

Hi everyone, this is Kim.
Please bear with me and just read about a wonderful lady who could use some LOVE and support from her friends right now.

Some of you might not know Jazzy that well, and have only just met her through her blog-

If you read the last post by Jazzy- you will understand some of what I am trying to say here today.
Jazzy's Daughter Lori passed away a few months ago ( while Jazz was in hospital recovering from her own health problems at the time)-

and now on Saturday night her dearest grandson- ANDREW passed away in her arms at home. He was 16.
Andrew was a VERY special boy indeed and after nearly drowning as a toddler , has lived with Jazz , she has cared for him and made sure he received the best care and love he deserved! She fought courts and child services to keep him at home! Even a few months ago again!
After his mom Lori died, he had been going downhill with his health- almost as if he knew his mom was waiting for him. He let go on Saturday night in Jazzy's arms at home- with her reassurance that everything would be fine and he could go, and that he was loved.

I just wanted to let everyone know and thought these two LO's that Jazz did would help some of you understand why and just how very special Jazzy is to all of us that know her well-







































Heavens VERY Special Child
Jazzy, my heart and prayers are with you during this time and I know just how much you loved Andrew and just how much he meant to you. I don't have the words to say here.

I am hoping that your words will touch this special Lady over the miles that seperate us all and that it will help her through this very sad time.

LOVE YOU JAZZ.
(ps- please pop on to my blog today- there is a special message and mini-freebie there that I would like everyone to see too)

113 comments:

Bunny Cates, digital-scrapbooking.org said...

Our hearts and prayers are with you Jazz!

LiviaY said...

Jazzy,

Just wanted to let you know that my heart is with you right now. You and your familiy are in my prayers.

Love,
Livia.

Bonnie said...

Jazz...I am so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine the pain you must be in, but please know that so many are thinking of you and you are not alone. Big hugs to you.

Mel said...

Jazzy,
My heart goes out to you. Please know that we are thinking of you and your family.

{{{{HUGS}}}}}

Jenni said...

Dear Jazzy
I am so sorry to hear about your loss, all my sympathy and love. I have only known you for a short time, and I know you are such a kind and generous person, and you have been through so much.
Big hugs

Silvia said...

Dearest Jazzy...Im so sorry for your loss...you and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers...be strong now

Sending you hugs and kisses
Silvia

jasjul said...

Jazz, I don't really know you but my heart goes out to you, I am so sorry for your loss.
lots of love and hugs
Julie(jasjul)

Kim's Scrappin' said...

Jazzy, my heart and prayers go out to you and your family!

Ally S said...

Jazzy, my thoughts & prayers are with you & your family during this difficult time!!

mel_h said...

hi jazzy!
thinking about you and your family during this tough time
much love,
mel_h xxxxxx

kelly1 said...

I wish there were something more we could say or do to ease your pain. But know that our hearts go out to you, and you are in our thoughts and prayers.

aquascrap said...

Dear Jazzy,
I have only just got to 'know' you through Kim's blog and now on your own blog....I know that words are not enough at this very difficult time for you and your family. Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Sending you many hugs
Judy

By Dezign said...

rhvkWords still fail me, but I'm sending you lots of love and the knowledge that you're in my thoughts.

RIP Andrew

Huge hugs and kisses
Luvies
Renée

belle007 said...

Deepest condolences to you and your family.

KayJay said...

My heart goes out to you. I have been a secret admirer of your word art for a while now, and I love your new blog, and was so pleased to hear that we were uplifting you. And now this. Here is a poem that helped me through the loss of a loved one.

> God looked around his Garden and found an empty place.
> He then looked down upon his earth and saw your loving face.
>
> He put his arms around you and lifted you to rest.
> His Garden must be beautiful, he always takes the best.
>
> He knew that you were suffering, he knew you were in pain.
> And knew that you would never get well on earth again.
>
> He saw your path was difficult, he closed you tired eyes,
> He whispered to you "Peace be Thine" and gave you wings to fly.
>
> When we saw you sleeping so calm and free of pain,
> We would not wish you back to earth to suffer once again.
>
> You've left us precious memories, your love will be our guide,
> You live on through your children, you're always by our side.
>
> It broke our hearts to lose you, but you did not go alone.
> For part of us went with you on the day God called you home

Hugs
Kerri

.: Kristine :. said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time Jazzy!!

Suzette said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you during this time. Hopefully you can draw some comfort that your daughter and grandson are together again.

BLE said...

y heart and prayers go out to you. Please know that we are thinking of you and your family.

:hugs:

Bekah

charlie said...

My heart breaks reading about your heartache, thoughts and prayers are with you....xxxx

lark said...

My best wishes and thoughts are with yoy. I am so sorry for your loss

Pat H. said...

Jazzy, they say God doesn't let us suffer more than we can handle, but sometimes we wonder why he trusts us so much. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. May your memories of your loved ones help sustain you in this time of loss and sorrow.

Pat H.

txbubbles said...

You and your family are in my prayers.

Hugs,
Vicki in Texas

Sharon aka Scrapcat4914 said...

Dear Jazzy
I know that this is not easy for you BUT want to let you know that we are ALL here for you & you are in our PRAYERS & THOUGHTS ALWAYS!!!!!!!!!
HUGE GIANT HUG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

jayleigh3 said...

Jazz - My prayers will be with you over the next days and months as you grieve the loss of your dear daughter and grandson. What a blessing it is to have a daughter and s-i-l eager to pack up and move across the country to be near you! Bless them, and you for the dedication and love you share.

Colleen said...

Jazz, I just wanted to pop over and let you know I'm so sorry for your loss. I'll be thinking of you and sending love and hugs out to you.

~Col

pressed petals said...

I am so sorry to hear of your great loss. You sound like a very strong lady. Your love for people will get you through!

breeoxd said...

sending love and positive thoughts your way.

LouCeeCreations said...

Jazzy, you are in my prayers, my heart goes out to you at this sad time.
hugs

Dinphy said...

OMG Jazz... I want to say something, but can't find a word. I'm sitting here chocked up at this heartbreaking story. For a boy I never new, for a woman a only know from the scrapping world.
But I feel so sorry for you, can't imagine the hurt you're in.
I was so happy reading you were finding some happiness through this blog and all the comments.
Dear jazzy, please know our thoughts are with you, even if we don't know what to say. ...

Hugs
Dinphy

BunnyFreak said...

Jazzy,

Please know you are in my prayers.

Michelle said...

Jazzie, you know I love you, and am praying you will get through this...You are such a wonderful person...Keep the faith hon...Love you bunches..So sorry for yet another loss...xoxoxox
Michelle

Felicia McB said...

I am so sorry for your loss Jazzy! I'm sending up prayers of peace for you.

fran b said...

I can't imagine the pain your in but
wanted to let you know that many are thinking of you and are sending good thoughts your way! Hugs!
fran b

Mystical Brat said...

"Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal." - From a headstone in Ireland

Jazzy,
Words cannot express the hurt I feel within my own self at this very moment learning of your loss... which has too, left me to realize I could never imagine the pain within your own heart and that I could only hope that as you read the words of comfort people have left for you that in some way it helps to bring you some peace.
My heart goes out to you and the rest of your family. Although it is tragic and very sad.. indeed know God does have a plan for you.
Thank You for the inspiration you have brought to us all. You are indeed a Beautiful and Couragous woman. God is very blessed to have two very special angels with him now, as they were apart of you.

"Friends are the pillars on your porch. Sometimes they hold you up, sometimes they lean on you, and sometimes it's just enough to know that they are standing by." - Anonymous

Blessings to you and yours,
Laura

Robbi1 said...

Oh Dear Jazzy, God Bless and take care of you now as Andrew is with his maker and safe and no longer in pain now. Big Hugs and thank you to you for all the Love you have given, its our time to send our Love and prayers to you now. as Kim would say. . . muwah!

Mrs. Miles said...

Dearest Jazzy,

I am SO AWKWARD at comforting - my mind immediately goes into brainfreeze, or is it heart-lock.

I think about those I love, and what it means to lose someone. Even the most well prepared loss is a an indescribable pain. We can all only stand on the outside of it, hoping that we can bring you a degree of comfort in knowing we are here for you.

I searched for a sentiment (and searched AND SEARCHED) but nothing could say what I wanted, except this:

"One thing I have noticed is that when the leaves fall off the trees in the autumn, the new buds are already there, waiting for spring. Perhaps this is God's way of reminding us that there is always something beautiful to look for when something has been lost."

- by Callie Goodrich

God never said we would not lose those we love, and sometimes we cannot see WHY we lose someone... but know there IS a purpose. I'm sure Andrew was a blessing in your life, for the brief time he was here.

Do you suppose, Jazzy, that we might help by being that 'something beautiful'? If you have a photo and would like me to do a layout for you of Andrew I would be honored.

Thank you for sharing your grief and loss with us.

Across the miles & praying for you and your family,

Love,
Barb

Shannon said...

You are in my thoughts and paryers Jazzy!

Kari ~ Relocated Dixie Girl said...

Jazzy, you & yours are in my thoughts & prayers.

dodo said...

My heart is crying for you and your family and friends that now suffer another terrible loss and i will keep you in my prayers. I am so sorry.
dodo

xashee's corner said...

i am soo sorry for your precious loss. my prayers are with you for strength to help you through. HUGS!!!!!

Lezlee said...

Jazzy,
The loss of a child is such a tough thing to endure...even if we know it's their time. I feel sad for your loss; yet I feel happy for the love that you've shared and will someday share again.
I will say a little prayer for you, your daughter and your grandson that you will find strength and happiness until you are together again.

Love
Lezee

leilauni said...

My heart goes out to you at this sad time in life. One shouldn't have to bear the pain you have endured this year. May God Bless you and hold you near.

Connie said...

I am so sorry to hear about your loss,I can't imagine anything worse than losing a child,our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Beth said...

We all love you so much Jazzy! I wish my {{{{HUGS}}}} could reach you! I'm sending prayers up for ya... and please know that we are all thinking of you.... and wish you peace and comfort. MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH love.... from, Beth.

ACMommy28 said...

Oh honey, I am so sorry to hear about your precious boy! As a Mom to an extra special boy as well, I know how much of an impact these amazing people have on our lives...I know he is in a beautiful place with his Mom where there are no more worries and that he is hugging you now.

So many blessings to you...

Jeanette Bollinger

grannymike said...

Jazzy, I cannot begin to imagine the emptiness your heart must be experiencing right now. I can't say I know what you're going through because I don't, to lose your beautiful daughter and now that special grandson. But I do know that God has promised us that peace that truly does pass all our human understanding, and I pray that you and your family feel that peace right now and in the days, months, and years to come. I don't think anyone ever "gets over" the loss of a child or grandchild, but the Bible also promises us that "weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning." I pray your "morning" comes soon. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Aly said...

jazzy, i've "known" you through kim b's blog, and now i find you have your own. thank you for your wonderful word art. and please accept my sympathies for your recent losses. the loss of one's parents don't compare to the loss of a child and grandchild, but death is death, and not life - or at least not this one. may peace find your heart and heal your soul. blessings to you.

Johanna said...

Jazzy, I am so sorry for all your loss and pain this year. My heart is with you right now. I have always felt that if one in our community is hurting we all feel the pain, and today I find this tobe even more true.

HUGS AND LOVE
--Johanna
aka tat2scrapper

Ginger said...

I am so sorry for you loss. My heart aches for you. I will keep you in my prayers. I hope you can feel the great big hug the digi scrapbooking community is giving you! Ginger

Andrea said...

I am sooo very sorry for your loss. I hope you are able to continue on. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Census (aka Cen aka June.S) said...

Jazzy I am so sorry to hear your sad news. I can only imagine the pain you are feeling at the moment at such a huge loss.
You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

makeyesup said...

Jazz, my thoughts and prayers are with you and may you be kept in God's loving arms.

azang said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you find solace in the love that goes on in your heart.

Jaya said...

I am soo sorry for ur loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you... Hugs Jaya

Julie said...

My heart and prayers are with you too! I'm so sorry for the loss of your special boy!

Laura said...

I have never met you nor have I ever talked to you. But just know that you and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers in the coming days. From one scrapbooking friend to another.... big hugs!

Lynn said...

Jazz, I am so sorry for your loss, you and your family are in my prayers.

Addicted2Scrappin' said...

Jazzy,

Words escape me so I will just say that I am sorry to hear about your loss. Take care and know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Lainey

Rachel said...

So sorry for your loss, may you have the strength and comfort you need to get through this!

the3chickens said...

My very deepest condolences for your loss.... It's hard to imagine your pain but pls know that many many people are thinking of you right now...

IreneO said...

So sorry for your loss. Hope you find comfort from your many friends.

Andrea said...

Jazzy we love you!! You are the sweetest angel for taking care of him so well!!

((hugs))
Andrea

RoseAddict said...

Dear Jazzy, you don't know me, but I heard about you and wanted to come leave a hug and say how sorry I am for your losses. I know from reading a bit on your blog that you know Andrew and Lori are safe and happy with the Lord now, but it still hurts so much for those left behind. I will be praying for your and your family's comfort and strength.

{{{hugs}}}
Karla

Shanners said...

Jazzy,
I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I hope you are able to find comfort from your friends and family and faith.

Stephany13 said...

I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your grandson (and daughter a few months back). I pray strength for you through this time of loss and love of many. Bless you for your hearts work.

Brenda said...

I am so sorry. Words are never enough in a time like this. You and your family are in my prayers. What a lucky boy to have a grandmother like you.

Kari said...

I don't know you but I do want ot let you know that I am very sorry for your loss. You will be in my prayers!

ibleedart said...

I wish you the best at these sad times. I know words don't comfort very much and losing loved ones is so hard, but I will offer my thoughts and prayers. :) Keep your chin up and know that you are loved!

Lisa said...

Jazzy, I am so sorry to hear about your precious Andrew. Please know that you are in my prayers.

Carjazi - aka Diane said...

I hope that you know they are together now, happy and healthy. Wishing you some sort of peace, and knowing that is all but impossible for you to find at this moment.

God Bless you all!

EnchantedCropper said...

I don't believe we've met. You have my sympathy and hugs.

Corinne said...

I am so impressed with the kindness and love being expressed here. It's amazing how well a virtual community can support and lift someone up. Jazzy you are very blessed to have these people in your life. And you are blessed by your immediate family, those on this earth and those in heaven. I will include you and your family in my prayers.

Patamomma said...

Oh, Jazz I sit here crying and just want to hold you. I am so sad for your loss. Know that even "blog" friends care and are sending all our thoughts and prayers to you. Patty

Elizabeth said...

Dear Jazzy, you have brightened so many lives with your lovely work and your stories here, I hope that all floods back to support you now, hugs and prayers for you!

BlueRose said...

I'm so sorry about your loss. My prayers & thoughts go out to you. I don't know you but from what I have read you sure are a very special girl.
(((((((((((HUGS)))))))))

lovetocraftbetty said...

I am so sorry to hear of your loss - my prayers are with you and your family.

spanielmom said...

My Dear Jazz----how heartbreaking to lose such a dear boy. I have been praying for you both since you first had trouble with trying to keep him at home. I will continue to pray for you---that the house won't seem too empty and that designing word art will fill up your days. I picture Andrew in Lori's arms sitting at the feet of our Father. My love and prayers and a great big hug to you Jazz.

Sooze said...

We don't know each other Jazzy, but my heart goes out to you and your family. My deepest sympathy for your losses and know that many people are sending their love to you at this very difficult time.
Susan xx

Lynncal said...

Dear Jazz

I am so very sad by your loss today and from the loss of your daughter recently. I can't imagine what you must be going through, as a fellow digi scrapper I am just so sad for you. Please accept my thoughts and prayers today, much Love,
Lynn

Stormie said...

Jazzy,

Although I do not know you, your story has touched my heart! I wish I knew the right words to say to make you feel better but just know that you are very much loved by so many people.

Your grandson sounds like a very special child & my heart goes out to you. You are indeed a wonderful person to take such loving care of him & I am sure his life was much better because you were in it.

I will keep you & your family in my prayers.

geezee said...

Love and prayers to you and all yours.

Miss j aka mixedclawzz said...

I am so sorry for your loss. My prayers are with you and your family.

Cindy J said...

Sending prayers, light and healing love energy your way...first time here at your blog but my heart is so touched by your candid sharing of your life...
blessings to you and yours,
cj

amber said...

we love you!

Aleah'sMommy said...

I dont know Jazz much at all. But I wish her the best in this time of loss. It was so amazing of her to care for her grandson the way I can see she did from seeing several blog posts about her tonight. I lvoe the scrap pages as they are a great symbol of her love for him. Please tell her my prayers are with her =)

Sarah said...

Be Comforted

Treasure precious memories. Remember the love. Discover peace within. Have faith. Seize hope. Draw on inner strength. Release fear. Let yourself cry. Take comfort in friends. Be patient with yourself. Trust in tomorrow. Attend to your needs. Ask for help. Let others give. Trust enough to take.

Be comforted.

Lean on others. Know people care. Feel the warmth of friendship. Be circled by love. Vow to move forward. Know the sun will shine. Behold new life. See the light ahead. Explore your heart. Seek healing. Let time pass. Look ahead with confidence. Celebrate the dawn.

Author - Jan Michelsen
(taken from the San Diego Hospice Bereavement Department)

Jazzy - we have never met online but when I read about your story today, my heart went out to you. I am so sorry for the loss of your daughter and your grandson! From yor few posts, I could tell how much you loved them both. You are an awesome lady - can I adopt you?

If you ever need to just YAK - yak my way... I am a good listener.

Sarah - San Diego :)

Hummie said...

Big pain in Jazzy's heart. I pray that God give her some peace and comfort and that she can feel His love around her.

Ann said...

My prayers are with YOU and all your family in this sad moments.
Ann

Dee said...

I am so sorry to hear of your recent losses. It takes a special person to care for a special child as you did for your grandson. Know that you are in many hearts today.

Dee

MH said...

Oh my heart is just breaking for you. Words arae just not enough. My prayers are with you.
May (mh51)

Joy said...

Jazzy... I am so sorry for your loses.. please take care of yourself. (((hugs))) Joy

sunny1972 said...

So sorry for your loss. I hope that now you can picture him with his mum as they watch down and care for you. You are a very special person to ahve given all the time and attention for your grandson.

Deb said...

Although I have only known you through your work here, I know you are a special lady. My heart aches for you as you go through this sorrow. I know your pain and please realize that although it never goes away, it does become easier with time. There is a special place with the angels for you, dear lady. Know you are loved.

abhall76 said...

Sending lots of love your way Jazzy! So sorry for your loss.

elnorac said...

Oh, Jazzy, please know that those of us in the digi community all over the world are thinking of you as you go through this difficult time. Our thoughts and prayers are with you...

O2BNGdHope said...

Oh, Jazz. I know you must be devastated at this additional loss. I just can't imagine how strong you must be to fight your way through these emotional losses to keep your faith in God so close. I heard a song once many years ago, sung by a young teenage girl who's father had had a stroke when he was in his early 30's. He was paralized on one side. The only parts I can remember of it were the choruses.

"Will I be a crippled boy in heaven? Will my wings refuse to sail through the air? Will I run and play with all the other children? Will I be a crippled boy up there?"

After meeting the Lord, he's reassured that:
"I won't be a crippled boy in heaven. Soon my wings are gonna sail through the air! I can run and play with all the other children. I won't be a crippled boy up there!"

Can't you just see him? All the pain and illness are gone. I'm sure Jesus was waiting for him at the gate with his arms open wide. He can sing in the choir! And meet Noah and hear the story of the ark from someone who was actually there. He can meet Daniel and hear the story of the lions den. Go ahead and grieve at his loss from your own life but rejoice at what a beautiful day, his first day in heaven!

Mrs. Miles said...

Hi Jazzy,

I hope I can keep coming to comfort you. I'm very inept and grasp for what the 'right' thing to say would be, but upon pondering, its not WHAT I could say, but just that I'll BE HERE, not just today, but I'll try to come back a bit later... later when everyone's lives have gotten back into a routine. When the pain is still fresh, but you kinda feel like you might have 'worn people out' by being 'back there' with your loss. I will try to be a fresh ear, a shoulder when you need to be. I can't know what exactly you need, but I want you to know I'm up to it, whatever your IT is.

I'm going to be praying for you over the coming weeks.

hugs,
Barb

Nora said...

I'm so very sorry for your losses. Prayers going up for you & your loved ones.

angelscrapper said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you in this time of deep sorrow

DigiLover said...

Jazzy,
just to let you know you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

may God wrap his comforting arms around you all at this time...xxxxxx

Vicki

themagickbox said...

}bighugs{ from a stranger who wandered into your blog the other day

Linda Walton aka bobbysgirlforever said...

Dearest Jazzy,

I do not know you personally, nor have I been to your blog before hearing of the loss of your PRECIOUS grandson, Andrew. I have only recently come to know of the loss of your daughter, Lori, while reading Kim's blog posts when she had designed a special scrapkit for you to scrap photos of Lori.

Is not this just the MOST incredible network of women one could ever imagine? And to read all of the HEARTFELT words from those in SCRAPLAND will not take away the deep pain of your loss of dearest Andrew, nor Lori, but they will fill your heart with MORE love with which to ease that pain a little each day.

I am SADDENED for you, yet JOYFUL for Andrew as he is no longer suffering the loss of his mother. I can ONLY imagine the LOVE you have given him for the past 16 years. I can see the results of it in his SWEET face in the layouts that Kim posted for us to see!

You are a GEM Jazzy. I shall be making sure to come back and visit and I really wish to see this WONDERFUL word art that I am hearing talked about!

You are DEEP in my heart, my thoughts and my prayers are with you and your family in this time of loss. May you be comforted during the difficult days ahead.

Much love to you my dearest digi-sister and BIG HUGS,

Linda

Love4Scrap said...

Our hearts and prayers go out to you Jazz. Should there be Anything that we can do please let us Know.

You are very muchly loved and thought of here and we will all be here anytime you need Us.

Love4Scrap and the Blog Dept

Hypermommy said...

Jazz, as hard as it is, remember that he's with his mom and his Heavenly Father and he's in a wonderful place. I wish there was something I could say that could take away the pain but I know there's not. My prayers are with you.

Elaine said...

Dear Jazzy, my heart & prayers go out to you, I am so sorry for the loss of your daughter & now grandson. I do understand, as I loss my son Jeff, two years ago to Hodgkins, he was only 29. I still can not get past asking "Why". He was so good, loved life so much & had two young children, who needed him so much. Not a day passes, that I do not think of Jeff.

My heart & prayers are with you & your family. Hugs, Elaine

manorarae said...

Jazzy I am so very touched by your story. I am terribly sorry for all of your loss and please know that my thoughts and prayers are being sent your way.

Stacey said...

Jazzy I am so incredibly sorry and will not forget your story. Nor will I forget to add you to my prayers each day, my Sister in Christ. ~Stacey

Shebadoo said...

You don't know me. I just came from another blog. I'm saddened by you loss. I will add you and your family to my prayers. Hugs!

debbie ( beckmoore) said...

MY heart goes out to you and your family,and you are in our prayers.
Big hugs to you Jazz!

VJ's Scrap Room said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you.Soo sorry for your loss.

Big Hugs!
Valinda

Kim B said...

Hi my dearest friend,
Just leaving you some love here tonight as I know these messages have helped you through yesterday.
Love you lots and letting you know you are in my thoughts.
Me

pkdoll said...

Hello my very dear friend. I just wanted to pop in and say hello and let you know you are so deep in my thoughts today and everyday. I know that you are finging comfort in all these caring wonderful comments and I just wanted you to know I am here too and am grieving with you. Love you!

Marion said...

Jazz, I don't know what to say except that now Andrew is in the arms of our loving God. He is healthy and happy and whole again. In as much that I know you will miss him and will grieve for h him, you can also rejoice for him.
Your SBM friend Marion